Over the course of my life I’ve been developing a sort of personality that I now hope I hadn’t adopted. I’ve shut myself off from the world and become a very big introvert. I mean, being an introvert is not bad, in fact I love being one! But sometimes it just goes to the extreme. Today while talking to someone who is very close to me I couldn’t even look them in the eye. Sometimes I just start sweating and trip on words. (Let me clear up that this happens to me with a lot of people, not just this one). It gets very frustrating at times.
After careful evaluation of my actions I have come to the conclusion that I’m scared of people. So as a kind of self-therapy I’ve decided I’m going to let go of my fears on this post.
People are just human beings. Why am I scared of them? Lets list the reasons:
- I worry too much of what others could think
- I over think everything
That’s about all I can think of. But we can conclude that my problem is over thinking and I do a lot of it. Just imagine thinking for about 10 minutes if you should send a message to someone through Facebook. It’s not only in real life but also on the internet when there are so many barriers between me and the other person.
I’m horrible at starting conversations and even worse at keeping them going. When somebody asks me something I normally kill the conversation right there. Even with my family. Once my father asked me a question and I answered with a simple “yes” and a spot on explanation that required no further discussion. My mother pointed out to me that I was too fast on killing the conversation and also too aggressive. Of course, it isn’t my intention to do so, it just happens.
Telephones. Cellphones. Calls. Video Calls. Those are the names of my worst nightmares. I’m always scared of how my voice might sound on through the phone, or how my face might look through the webcam or camera.
Now that we’re done with the causes, naturally we should discuss solutions. What can I do to stop over thinking? What do I do to stop worrying so much about things? People say “Talk to someone” but I already have and it hasn’t helped much. Writing this whole posts costs as talking to someone, maybe it’ll help me pour out my worries, even if I’m literally talking to myself. (Talking to myself is something I quite enjoy, I don’t mind saying it. NO I’M NOT CRAZY!) . Right now I honestly feel better.
Being so shy is a very big problem in my life. Often losing opportunities for things that should be done right when you have the chance.(If I know you and you’re very close to me you might have an idea of what I’m talking about). Tomorrow morning I will make sure the first thing that goes through my mind is “I will not be shy” and I’ll keep repeating it. They say positive thinking is very powerful.
Alright, I’m feeling much better now. Thank you for helping me. I leave you with this picture of a thing: